I look at these peoples' profiles and see all their wall conversations. Then, I look at their pictures and I realize it: they have no one new; only friends from high school. All the previous wishes of mine go away and I am happy that that will not be me. Not only will I have all new friends, but they will be friendships for forever. Yes, these people have strong high school friendships, but there should be more beyond that, at least in my mind. I will come home and have an awesome time with Amelia, but I will have friends when I go back to school; not friends that I knew before my Linfield days. Everything will be so wonderful. My amazing roomie, Miss Bri, and I will have adventures and blasts together; I will rock the soccer field with Jen; I will play it up in the band with Zoe... These all are friends I know that I will already have, and yet there are more on their way that I haven't even met yet. I am so excited to leave for this new canvas of life.
And yet, at the time of wanting the new canvas, a rekindled paper arises. This is a paper which I do not know where to place yet want to keep and admire all of forever. I love him nearly more than I love myself: this I will not deny. I need someone to talk me through life this summer...someone to have fun with. But breaking up. Ohhhh breaking up. It will be done soon enough though. I shall discuss with Sue it first though. Tomorrow. Yes. Tomorrow. I love him.
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